My story begins August 1st, 2015. That was the first day of my lease for a one bedroom apartment in the downtown area of the city I grew up: Frederick, MD. Fresh out of college, it was both exciting and extremely scary. It was me, myself and I in my new downtown apartment.
No more roommates, no more classes, no sorority activities or chapter meetings, no crazy schedules, no all-nighters with friends, no fraternity parties on the weekend. Everything I loved about my life was suddenly gone. Time slowed down for me, a lot. And it wasn’t long before I slipped into a depression. I gained 30 pounds in 7 months, I hated going to work everyday, and my friends in Frederick were few and far between. I would cry myself to sleep most nights and binge eat or shop to make myself feel better, but it wasn’t working. Nothing felt good anymore.
Enter: the gym.
My mom encouraged me to go to gym classes with her in October 2015. One hour everyday to get my heart rate up. It wasn’t life changing, but it was a start. I found out that I really loved kickboxing. It was a routine and some interaction with the world I lived in. I began to focus on the gym and food a lot because I wanted to get back on track. But pretending to be okay when you’re not okay can be difficult.
At the end of February 2016, I hit my breaking point. I finally said to myself, “Sioban, enough is enough. You hate yourself and your life. It’s time to change.” I started my own fitness account (@siobankileyfit), went to therapy once a week and I began going to the gym with a girl I had met through a friend. She was getting into weightlifting, something I had never really tried. Turned out, I loved it. Her and I went to the gym almost everyday, spending 2 hours picking heavy things up and putting them back down. We both had different approaches to lifting and I wanted to learn more.
By summer 2016, my gym buddy became my roommate and things started speeding up. I had her to go to the gym with and talk to, my boyfriend was home for the summer, and it was warm again. In May 2016, I came across an Instagrammer, Sami Bossert (@leanmachine21), who does online fitness challenges. I signed up for her Summer Challenge, two months of training and meals, because I really wanted to learn more about how to take care of my body. It was crazy how much my body had transformed in just the first 4 weeks! That’s when something clicked with me, I have the power and the control in my life.
Fast forward to today: I go to the gym 5-6 days per week, meal prep on Sundays, I’m in the process of moving to the DC area, and started this blog. I believe that everything happens for a reason. I still get lonely and I would be lying if I said that I wasn’t missing the college life. We all hit a point where the days just keep going but we feel like we’re just standing still. The transition from college into this crazy adult world was quite a wake-up call for me. I’ve learned a lot about myself over the past year and I hope this blog can help inspire you and your journey through life.
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